Category Archives: Feelings

Christmas Letter from Tagore

More than 100 years ago, Rabindranath Tagore, winner of the 1913 Nobel Prize for Literature, spent five months in the United States trying to raise money for his newly founded Visva-Bharati University. He was mostly unsuccessful, in part, because British officials in the USA were discreetly working against him, dissuading rich benefactors from donating. This subtle sabotage was mainly because, after the Amritsar massacre in 1919, Tagore had renounced his knighthood.

Christmas 1921 at Yama Farms Inn. You can clearly see Tagore who is standing tall, left of Santa, wearing a traditional robe and his real flowing white beard!

At Christmas Tagore happened to be staying as a guest at Yama Farms Inn in the Catskill Mountains north of New York City. Located on 1300 acres, Yama Farms Inn had 40 rooms. It was a kind of retreat hotel for industrialists who could go there and enjoy the company of intellectuals without any fuss about their millions. It was the kind of place where you could find Mr. Colgate, Mr. Eastman, and J.D. Rockefeller. Previous guests had been Thomas Edison and the naturalist John Burroughs.

While Tagore was there, he was outside the inn at the same time J.D. Rockefeller was waiting for his car. When Rockefeller saw Tagore, he gave him a dime. Later Rockefeller told the owner of Yama Farms that he had given a dime to “an old Negro.” Tagore is said to have later asked two Russian artists, “Isn’t it odd…Do I look like a tramp?”

Tagore wrote this pained letter to his friend and confident Charles Freer Andrews from Yama Farms on Christmas Day:

Bird painting by Tagore

Near New York, December 25th, 1921

To-day is Christmas Day. We are about forty-five guests gathered in this inn from different parts of the United States. It is a beautiful house, nestling in the heart of a wooded hill, with an invitation floating in the air of a brook broadening into a lake in the valley. It is a glorious morning, full of peace and sunlight, of the silence of the leafless forest untouched by bird songs or humming of bees.

But where is the spirit of Christmas in human hearts? The men and women are feeding themselves with extra dishes and laughing extra loud. But there is not the least touch of the eternal in the heart of their merriment, no luminous serenity of joy, no depth of devotion. How immensely different from the religious festivals of our country! These Western people have made their money but killed their poetry of life. Here life is like a river, that has heaped up gravel and sand and choked the perennial current of water that flows from an eternal source on the snowy height of an ancient hill. I have learnt since I came here to prize more than ever the infinite worth of the frugal life and simple faith. These Western people believe in their wealth, which can only multiply itself and attain nothing.

How to convince them of the utter vanity of their pursuits! They do not have the time to realize that they are not happy. They try to smother their leisure with rubbish of dissipation, lest they discover that they are the unhappiest of mortals. They deceive their souls with counterfeits, and then, in order to hide that fact from themselves, they artificially keep up the value of those false coins by an unceasing series of self-deceptions.

My heart feels like a wild-duck from the Himalayan lake lost in the endless desert of Sahara, where sands glitter with a fatal brilliance but the soul withers for want of the life-giving spring of water.

From left to right: Baron Roman Romanovitch Rosen, who served as the Russian ambassador to the United States and to Japan; Rabindranath Tagore; and Arthur Hamerschlag, first president of the Carnegie Mellon Institute of Technology, outside Yama Farms Inn.

I Cannot Live Without You

I stand here ironing
t-shirts
a green dress
your shirt for work.
And think how absurd
with a genocide
not miles away.

An endless litany of words
drained of all meaning and force.
Genocide, ethnic cleansing,
displacement, occupation,
hostage and liberation.
Under siege and mass atrocities.

Words without context.
Terrorist. Nazi. Zionist. Fascist.
Hamas. Antisemitic.
Jew. Christian. Moslem.
Massacre and holocaust.

Slippery collective shadow
ruthlessly reckless.
Animal. Beast.
Less than human.
Savages.

I ease the iron across a tablecloth
as the numbers move before my eyes.
2.3 million, hundreds of thousands.
1400 dead… 3000 dead… 5000 dead… 8000 dead.
732 entire families dead.
Under the rubble dead.

Non-stop bombardment.
Whispering within
the sliver of silence
not one word.
Peace.

Only the voice of a Jewish grandmother.
Turns to her captor,
shakes his hand,
“Shalom.”
Only the voice of a Palestinian grandmother
learns her daughter dead,
her granddaughter dead,
 “Please come to me in my dreams.
   Because I cannot live without you.”

I stand and iron
your handkerchiefs,
my white summer dress
to hang in closets and place in drawers.
But how to wash and iron
this epic human tragedy?
And in what drawer
do I place it?

Please come to me in my dreams.
Because I cannot live without you.
God’s mercy.
God’s charity.
Love and kindness.
Justice.
Empathy and compassion.
But most of all
Peace.

Catherine Ann Lombard
November 1, 2023

Wake Whole

There is a hole in my heart.
Tender and whole.
Seeking light…

How to view these images?
Eyes shut. Heart open.
With prayer.

Greediness for revenge
never works.
Only backfires.
I know this.
My father murdered when I was
just fifteen.

Where does the pain go?
No where fast.
I know this.
More than fifty years later.

Our suffering…
must be more than just that.
Stop. Please stop.
And turn it inside out.

Patterns shift in
newborn light.
Forgiveness slow.
Forgiveness steady.
7 x 70
Led by a holy heart.

Catherine Ann Lombard
October 15, 2023