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I Cannot Live Without You

I stand here ironing
t-shirts
a green dress
your shirt for work.
And think how absurd
with a genocide
not miles away.

An endless litany of words
drained of all meaning and force.
Genocide, ethnic cleansing,
displacement, occupation,
hostage and liberation.
Under siege and mass atrocities.

Words without context.
Terrorist. Nazi. Zionist. Fascist.
Hamas. Antisemitic.
Jew. Christian. Moslem.
Massacre and holocaust.

Slippery collective shadow
ruthlessly reckless.
Animal. Beast.
Less than human.
Savages.

I ease the iron across a tablecloth
as the numbers move before my eyes.
2.3 million, hundreds of thousands.
1400 dead… 3000 dead… 5000 dead… 8000 dead.
732 entire families dead.
Under the rubble dead.

Non-stop bombardment.
Whispering within
the sliver of silence
not one word.
Peace.

Only the voice of a Jewish grandmother.
Turns to her captor,
shakes his hand,
“Shalom.”
Only the voice of a Palestinian grandmother
learns her daughter dead,
her granddaughter dead,
 “Please come to me in my dreams.
   Because I cannot live without you.”

I stand and iron
your handkerchiefs,
my white summer dress
to hang in closets and place in drawers.
But how to wash and iron
this epic human tragedy?
And in what drawer
do I place it?

Please come to me in my dreams.
Because I cannot live without you.
God’s mercy.
God’s charity.
Love and kindness.
Justice.
Empathy and compassion.
But most of all
Peace.

Catherine Ann Lombard
November 1, 2023

Wake Whole

There is a hole in my heart.
Tender and whole.
Seeking light…

How to view these images?
Eyes shut. Heart open.
With prayer.

Greediness for revenge
never works.
Only backfires.
I know this.
My father murdered when I was
just fifteen.

Where does the pain go?
No where fast.
I know this.
More than fifty years later.

Our suffering…
must be more than just that.
Stop. Please stop.
And turn it inside out.

Patterns shift in
newborn light.
Forgiveness slow.
Forgiveness steady.
7 x 70
Led by a holy heart.

Catherine Ann Lombard
October 15, 2023

Joyfully Suffering the News

Yesterday I met Lucia for the first time. She is a 7-month old solid soul who has nothing but gurgling smiles for the world. Between bites of chocolate ice cream, her mother became quietly despondent. “Hasn’t the news been terrible lately?” she asked.

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Yes, the news has been terrible. The news is always terrible. That’s what news is. Terrible. It is either full of suffering or full of rich, happy, famous people. Sometimes it is full of rich, unhappy, famous people suffering. But usually it consists of poor, unhappy, non-famous people suffering. In fact, Assagioli once told a student of his that, while it was important to read the news, one should only do so in homeopathic doses!

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